Before I Was a Mom

Before I was a Mom -

I slept as late as I wanted and never worried about how late I got into bed. I brushed my hair and my teeth everyday.

Before I was a Mom -

I cleaned my house each day. I never tripped over toys or forgot words to a lullaby. I didn't worry whether or not my plants were poisonous. I never thought about immunizations.

Before I was a Mom -
I had never been puked on - Pooped on - Spit on - Chewed on, or Peed on. I had complete control of my mind and My thoughts. I slept all night.

Before I was a Mom -

I never held down a screaming child so that doctors could do tests...or give shots. I never looked into teary eyes and cried. I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin. I never sat up late hours at night watching a baby sleep.

Before I was a Mom -
I never held a sleeping baby just because I didn't want to put it down. I never felt my heart break into a million pieces when I couldn't stop the hurt. I never knew that something so small could affect my life so much. I never knew that I could love someone so much. I never knew I would love being a Mom.

Before I was a Mom -

I didn't know the feeling of having my heart outside my body. I didn't know how special it could feel to feed a hungry baby. I didn't know that bond between a mother and her child. I didn't know that something so small could make me feel so important.

Before I was a Mom -

I had never gotten up in the middle of the night every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay. I had never known The warmth, The joy, The love, The heartache, The wonderment or the satisfaction of being a Mom.

I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much before I was a Mom.

Bouncing off the Walls

Q.  What do you get when you combine bronchitis, albuterol treatments and a course of steroids?

A.  A four-year-old child bouncing off the walls and a kickin' headache that just won't quit.

The Little Things in Life

I have to tell you.  My four-year-old cracks me up, but just like his big brother, he teaches me something new every day.  Today it is to appreciate the little things in life.

Lately, all I seem to hear is, "Momma, can you get me a surprise today?"  Some days it's yes and others it's no. Recently though, the surprises have become more costly, so they have been fewer and farther between.

This weekend I needed to go to the mall to pick up a few things and Josh had to go with me.  Of course, what that equated to Josh was that the chances for surprise were pretty good.  Unfortunately, the mall we have by our home has very few stores, a couple of big name ones, a book store and some other little ones - none being a toy store.  Joshy and I decided to hit the book store...I needed a new book and I told Tyler I'd pick one up for him as well.  Well Josh, decided a book was NOT what he wanted, but he was going to find some sort of toy. 

After what felt like an eternity shopping for a toy in a book store, Josh found this little balloon-powered wooden boat for $3.95.  I thought it was going to be a little crappy thing, that within a few hours would be broken...but I was wrong.  Since getting that yesterday, he has played with it in the sink for hours, not to mention he actually begged to take a bath (which lately has been a fight.)  This little toy has given him hours of enjoyment and it was such a little thing.

When I went to peek on him playing in the bathroom sink he looked at me with the biggest smile on his face and exclaimed, "This is the best present ever!"  - It's sometimes the little things that brings a smile to our hearts.

Embrace Your Dreams

There are two types of dreams that every person has. There are dreams that we have while we are awake and dreams that we have while we are asleep.

Is there a connection between the two?

Both types of dreams are about the yearnings that are held deep inside our souls. They are illustrations, from the book your soul is writing about you.

Some of these desires are so secret that we dare not share them even with our closest friends. Others are so minor that we hold tight to them, for fear that they will slip away.

The power to dream is so important. It reminds us that there is always a life to work towards, goals to strive for and it allows us to live our life to its fullest.

Embrace your dreams and never give up.