"Don't worry about failure...Worry about the chances you miss when you don't even try."I have always been one that has been up for almost anything...a new experience, a new vacation place or even a new overall adventure...taking chances and risks really partially defined who I am/was. Though, not in all areas of my life is it that easy. The one place I remain guarded is in my personal life. The fear of failure has always won out over my sense of letting go and opening up. The fear of heartache tended to control whether I let in others and trust or whether I kept myself guarded and distant. As I have grown older, and experience new things, I have come to realize that, that is not the life I want to live.
I have had to make the conscious decision to open up and let go...still, at times, it is not easy, but nonetheless, I am allowing myself to care and give my all to those who I care about. The "what is going to happen tomorrow" doesn't even come into play (well, not as much anymore :)) and I am learning to live for today...and only for today. I can't worry who is going to be there tomorrow, because life gives us no guarantee. The only thing I can be sure of is what I have, and for the moment I have it. The rest is all a gamble and I have to decided that the potential happiness is worth the roll of the dice.
Who knows what the rest of the day will bring, let alone the rest of my life. But everyday I wake up, knowing that there is an an amazing plan out there for me...onw which will leave me breathless at every point.
